Over the past few weeks I’ve been going through finals, and I must say that it is fantastic to be on the other side where my thoughts are no longer consumed with thoughts of studying while doing all other things.  It was a fantastic semester and a really convicting one at that.

I had the opportunity to read “Reflections on the Psalms” by C.S. Lewis this term.  I have read many quotes from it before, especially on the chapter on praise.  But to be able to read the quotes in context of the chapter, and the chapter in context of the book, the thoughts were more piercing than before.

C.S. Lewis and I have stood on opposite ends of understanding, or should I say, misunderstanding praise.  He writes about how he felt it unnecessary for the Psalmists to continually tell others to praise, worship, make a joyful noise, etc.  The confusion came in wondering why others (including God himself) felt the need to force worship.  I on the other hand, was… am one of those people who try to make people worship every week.  It is my job, my obligation and what I feel “called” to do.  In a limited view, both of our stances fall short of the intention of worship.

Lewis’s realization, and my conviction this past week, is that the only way someone can find complete joy in something is if they praise it.  When I find a fantastic restaurant, I have to tell other people about it.  Just check my personal tumblr and see all the pictures of food.  My joy of the food is not complete until I tell others.  Whether it is cars, paintings, music, or even a boy or girl that we admire, we feel the need to tell others so that they can see, confirm, and also admire (or praise) our object of affection.

For some reason we do not feel this need when it comes to worship.  Perhaps we are embarrassed, or overwhelmed by the negation connotations with being a “Jesus-freak,” but for some reason we are content with our personal joy.  Maybe it is because we really do not admire God and his love as much as we understand it.  And maybe it is because I, and possibly some other worship leaders, have begun to lead congregations in praise focused on singing and not on realizing the very character and nature of God.

God is amazing.  He is more than I could ever understand, but from what I do understand, I cannot hold it in.  If I can get myself, my desires, and my “job responsibilities” out of the way, maybe my praise can come forward and maybe my joy will be complete.